Magical Tea or Something.

yesterday was absolutely wonderful. now that i think about it, it couldn't be the magical tea, because i was happy all day, starting early in the morning when bethany called to tell me that i was going to be wearing her brother's jersey. hurray, hurrah! the previous evening, i had been spazzing out like none other, but with that jersey on, i suddenly felt more calm (probably 'cause i didn't want to embarrass bethany's brother). it was embarrassing when people asked me who's jersey it was, because some people were like "oooh, cute," some were just fun assholes (the words of more than one person were something along the lines of: "you wear the jersey of the person you're fucking, right? that's how it works?"), and more than one person on the football team laughed at me. but it was still fun. even weight training didn't bother me too much.
after school, i hung out with a few people for a couple of hours. they're all crazy. i was trying to convince (SECRET FRIEND)'s ex to get over her, as i always do, and the three or four of us just had random conversations while (SECRET FRIEND) peeked out from windows (sometimes running upstairs to look down from there) and from around doors to give me fucking strange faces. weirdo. eventually (SECRET FRIEND)'s ex and i realized that our big, black friend had left his cell phone, so i dug through his contacts and found my name with a little heart next to it. urgh. (SECRET FRIEND)'s ex laughed at me. we returned the phone to our big, black friend's house while i daydreamed of stabbing him in the gut. (SECRET FRIEND)'s ex suggested that we go to the restaurant where (SECRET FRIEND) works - "i'll buy," he said - and i just laughed at his silly desperation. he says that if he never saw her again, he might be happy (yeah, he's a baby), but then he tries so hard to see her. yeah. he's a bit on the criminally insane side.
when i got home, i checked the caller i.d. on my phone and called ashley back. we decided that we were going to eat at where (SECRET FRIEND) works, to be supportive. we got the buffet and ended up staying there for around three hours, giggling and making faces and drinking endless amounts of soul-warming tea, which i didn't believe was caffeinated. we stayed until (SECRET FRIEND)'s boyfriend showed up, then we paid and were given a shitload of fortune cookies and headed to howard park, where we swung and sang and giggled and acted quite high (it's the tea, i swear), running and screaming "rape!" when a truck pulled up, only to discover that it was one of our friends and his whores, then walking around discussing a homeless guy sleeping on a table, then dividing our fortune cookies and going home.
the sky was absolutely amazing last night. all the stars were completely visible, shining down on this perfect day with determined intensity. i lay under the stars for a while, thinking about how enormous the universe is, and how there are infinitely many problems out there and mine are and will always be completely insignificant. if everyone could get a perfect sky like this after a perfect day, maybe we could all realize this. if only the world could stop being so selfish and dwelling on petty problems, maybe we would be at peace with each other and with ourselves. it's easier said than done, i know, but for one night, i didn't have a care in the world.