I Almost Let My Guard Down There for a Tick.

there for a moment, i almost believed that teenage boys could have actual feelings.
what a silly thought!
no, it's really all about fitting in and having something even remotely close to sex, isn't it?
some guys claim that they look at certain couples and that's how they think their ideal relationship is.
i wonder if they even realize that they're basing their ideal relationship on relationships that are based on sex?
"my sister and her boyfriend," "teri and nate." babe, they all have sex.
subconscious thoughts take over a man's brain, don't they? they don't even fucking realize what they're thinking until it's too damn late.
but at least i didn't let my guard down enough to want a relationship, eh?
i'm a kid. it's best if i just get my mind off of men for long enough to bring up my GPA. i would really like to go to a certain college, and i can't go unless i'm a good student. i probably can't go anyway, since i can't afford a private school like Central... but i can have my dreams, right? hrmf. men are just distractions for women.
men can't live without sex, but women can't live without success. RIGHT?
anyway, just informing you (my two or three readers) that i have pulled my guard up all the way again. NO DISTRACTIONS THIS YEAR, OKAY?