Green Grass! Lilacs! Swine Flu!

oh, how i love my silly adolescent body and mind. everything's so critical and explosive. oh, no! my friend got mad at me. it's the end of the world! but everything works out just fine. it always does. friends don't stay mad because they're friends, and they're not there to be angry with you. they're there to love you, and that's just what they'll do. and i love them, and i don't mean to make them angry, but it happens. i'm sorry that i upset you at times, friends. you upset me sometimes, too. mostly you just make me sad on occasion, but i don't mind. that's just how i know that i love you: even if you punched me in the face, i would still go back to you afterward.

there's something about spring that just makes me want to do everything. i want to go have that midnight picnic with bethany and ashley, i want to buy streamers with those two and whoever else and run around town with the streamers flying behind us, i want to have rubber ducky races, i want to go fishing, i want to enjoy myself!

i was grounded for a while because i was failing weight training, but now i'm not! unfortunately, i broke the rules the day before i was ungrounded. if i could have waited just one more day before deciding to have evan over, i would be free to go to the art walk tomorrow night with bethany, ashley, and (SECRET FRIEND), who is usually working during art walks. and my grandpa's band, Van and The Movers, is playing on the gazebo in the square! i've waited an eternity for him to play again, and now i'm going to miss it? i suppose there is the slightest chance that my parents will let me go, but i'm thinking that i'll have to agree to do a shit ton of chores before they even consider it.

school and i are fighting currently. he (school is a he because it is an asshole) decided to slam a bunch of projects on me at one time - history, biology, and spanish - and i just won't have it. he can kiss my ass. oh, well. it's not like i'm the only person doing projects. and i wasn't the only person who ran the mile, either, and i even wasn't the only person who ran it in a terrible time. i wasn't the only person to finish last in their class. granted, i was the only person to finish last in my class, but that's a given. i don't care about weight training in the least. the mile left me kind of comfortably in pain, and i even felt like i got to do it again after school, when i had to get to the radio station as quickly as possible to galen and evan's show (Midweek Songstreak - wednesdays at 4-5 on 100.1 KRUULP, Fairfield, IA) after i found out that i was ungrounded. everything's awesome.

everything is so awesomely awesome.

I Don't See The Art in This Walk...

art walk, art walk! i'm sure i've told you before, but i'll remind you non-existent newcomers: in my little town of floaters, there is an art walk every first friday of every month. this month, my friend terinel was supposed to come down from iowa city to see galen, evan, and me. well, not just us, but she would have hung out with us. if she had shown up. turns out that her mom got sick and she stayed, but she'll be here tomorrow. unfortunately, galen and evan have state (speech team). i don't know when they get home, but it's probably waaaaaay late, even though they leave home at freakin' five forty-five in the morning. i really want to go with them, but i couldn't find an important person to grovel to. mr. hucke told me before that i wouldn't ever be able to ride in the bus with my buddies since i wasn't in speech team, so i know he would have said no to my request this time. but it would have been worth a shot! i'm going to be sooo looonelyyy while they're gone. nah, i'll be fine. bethany recommended Eragon, so i'm going to sit back and try to stomach it. meh, i'm sure i'll enjoy it, if i allow myself to.
anyway, i had a grand time at the art walk. i hung out with galen, evan, and auriel, three of my favorite lovers. they're the three people in this world that i am not afraid to lean on, or to put my head in their laps. i don't get to hang out with them much; just at galen and evan's radio show (wednesday, 4-5, 100.1 FM, KRUULP). that's one hour a week that i get to spend with them, and i normally just lie back and try to sleep on the couch. it was nice to hang out with them at the art walk tonight. auriel and i shared some lovely ... i guess it's frozen coconut milk... i cuddled up with evan plenty, and galen and i actually had a serious conversation for once. AND, AND! the weather was perfect. i didn't even need my coat, some of the time. this whole day has been warm and content. however, i know that this great weather is just a bad omen: global warming is going to kill us all! oh, well. i'll enjoy the nice weather while it lasts, y'know? it will only get hotter and hotter and hotter. better enjoy the impeccable bits!
i would write more, but i'm going cross-eyed because of the computer screen (that i have only been looking at for a little while) and because of my extreme desire to sleep. i really wish i could go with you, speech team-ians. break your legs [and necks], lovelies! I ADMIRE YOU. g'night.