Oh, Lordy.

There are too many people telling me what I can and can't do - Dani, you can't go to U of I, you have to go to Indian Hills. You can't go to college at all without being in debt for the rest of your life. You can't keep this relationship going. You can't expect Evan to be down every weekend. Well, maybe I can't, but Jesus, fuck off. Let me live. I've been terrified for the past month or two - terrified of everything - because no one will let me think about the present, myself least of all. I'm completely and utterly absorbed in the future. What will become of my relationship? Can I really go to college? What happens after that? Will I ever get married? Will I truly be in debt for an eternity? What am I supposed to be doing to ensure a safe future for myself?
The human mind is a bitch. I'd rather be a rodent.